To BE or Not to BE..
Good Day
I've always admired people with great blogs. Makes me wish i had their computing skills to make such eye catching sites. But then again, its never really been my forte this designing and programming business. I guess i'm just too lazy to learn.
Sometimes i wonder, what if i actually decided to pursue such a path. What if i really put effort into being all creative and stuff. Would it be different for me?
...I think it would.
You know how people always tell you to pursue a dream and don't give up till you get there. It's very much easier said then done. It takes courage i can assure you. Or maybe simplicity of mind.
After all, success is how you yourself wish to measure it. I can be a struggling painter, yet feel accomplished that i'm at least a painter for example. How i wish i could think like that. I admire people who manage to follow their dreams and live it all the way but sometimes i wonder how it would've been like starting out for them. How they dealt with the pressure and the like. I liken pursuing your dreams to taking a gamble. For every success story we hear about, how many others have failed along the way pursuing their dream?
You never hear of these failures. We never glorify failures. Thats what we're thought about. But y'know, what we perceive a failure may in fact be to that person an accomplishment. After all, how many of us can testify to having lived our dream? The apparent failure might just smile to himself after falling and say, 'At least i gave it a shot... now i won't die thinking what might have been if i took the other route'.
That to me is what it's all about. To be able to live without regrets. You never know until you've tried, but the point is do we dare to take that gamble? Do we dare to leave our comfort zone to put our future on the line?
I know i don't. Till now months after enrolling myself into Uni and i still doubt the choice i've taken. Sure, the property outlook is pretty bright and you'd never really go wrong with business in general. But seriously, thats the real problem isn't it?
I don't believe going through mid way and then push the reset button and start all over again. I don't believe in wasted time doing a particular course. It's just added knowledge you're getting. Not really your interest but knowledge nonetheless. I like to believe that if the door is opened and others aren't that really there's a purpose for you in there. But i can't help but play the what if game.
Shu-Wen has over the past few months aired her concern that the course i'm taking may not necessarily be the best for me in terms of my interest. And to an extent she's spot on. I've never really placed myself inside an office or looking at numbers. To be honest, i've never felt really at home with it. I've always like the idea stressing my brain to no end with whatever creative ideas that is required of me, i like colours, pictures, and the like. I love speaking in public! i really do..
But somehow i've always been afraid to venture out into the creative field. To add insult to the injury the course i'm taking would effectively rule me out of having any form of participation in the advertising indsutry unlike my sister who despite taking accounting and finance can still jump into account servicing. I guess, i'll have to finally close off that entire option completely for now.
To put what i'm doing currently to what i would like to do on a scale would eventually lead to a balancing act really. I can't tear them apart. Both have so much of something that i really love. You should guess as much by now that security and position matter to me.
Yea, and everybody will say i'm materialistic. Say that to me and i can only hang my head low and nod. I am materialistic. I admit it, it's somethin that started a long time within me that was built up over time this desire to be famous and sorts. I won't go into details, but its something Shu-Wen knows and tries to change me to know end. Can't blame her and i'm really grateful for her that she tries and constantly ensures that i'm kept on the right track,
Frankly i know whatever i was talking about would ultimately be left for me to figure out on my own. Then again, make that somethin for GOD to reveal to me.
Anyways, on the bright side of things i really can't find any superlatives to describe what Shu-Wen is to me. How she tirelessly ensures tha my off centre sense of humour and dreams are kept in check. She's really a god send=)
She's even got me to read the bible with her every night! What i ever do without her?
Have a Nice Day everyone.
I've always admired people with great blogs. Makes me wish i had their computing skills to make such eye catching sites. But then again, its never really been my forte this designing and programming business. I guess i'm just too lazy to learn.
Sometimes i wonder, what if i actually decided to pursue such a path. What if i really put effort into being all creative and stuff. Would it be different for me?
...I think it would.
You know how people always tell you to pursue a dream and don't give up till you get there. It's very much easier said then done. It takes courage i can assure you. Or maybe simplicity of mind.
After all, success is how you yourself wish to measure it. I can be a struggling painter, yet feel accomplished that i'm at least a painter for example. How i wish i could think like that. I admire people who manage to follow their dreams and live it all the way but sometimes i wonder how it would've been like starting out for them. How they dealt with the pressure and the like. I liken pursuing your dreams to taking a gamble. For every success story we hear about, how many others have failed along the way pursuing their dream?
You never hear of these failures. We never glorify failures. Thats what we're thought about. But y'know, what we perceive a failure may in fact be to that person an accomplishment. After all, how many of us can testify to having lived our dream? The apparent failure might just smile to himself after falling and say, 'At least i gave it a shot... now i won't die thinking what might have been if i took the other route'.
That to me is what it's all about. To be able to live without regrets. You never know until you've tried, but the point is do we dare to take that gamble? Do we dare to leave our comfort zone to put our future on the line?
I know i don't. Till now months after enrolling myself into Uni and i still doubt the choice i've taken. Sure, the property outlook is pretty bright and you'd never really go wrong with business in general. But seriously, thats the real problem isn't it?
I don't believe going through mid way and then push the reset button and start all over again. I don't believe in wasted time doing a particular course. It's just added knowledge you're getting. Not really your interest but knowledge nonetheless. I like to believe that if the door is opened and others aren't that really there's a purpose for you in there. But i can't help but play the what if game.
Shu-Wen has over the past few months aired her concern that the course i'm taking may not necessarily be the best for me in terms of my interest. And to an extent she's spot on. I've never really placed myself inside an office or looking at numbers. To be honest, i've never felt really at home with it. I've always like the idea stressing my brain to no end with whatever creative ideas that is required of me, i like colours, pictures, and the like. I love speaking in public! i really do..
But somehow i've always been afraid to venture out into the creative field. To add insult to the injury the course i'm taking would effectively rule me out of having any form of participation in the advertising indsutry unlike my sister who despite taking accounting and finance can still jump into account servicing. I guess, i'll have to finally close off that entire option completely for now.
To put what i'm doing currently to what i would like to do on a scale would eventually lead to a balancing act really. I can't tear them apart. Both have so much of something that i really love. You should guess as much by now that security and position matter to me.
Yea, and everybody will say i'm materialistic. Say that to me and i can only hang my head low and nod. I am materialistic. I admit it, it's somethin that started a long time within me that was built up over time this desire to be famous and sorts. I won't go into details, but its something Shu-Wen knows and tries to change me to know end. Can't blame her and i'm really grateful for her that she tries and constantly ensures that i'm kept on the right track,
Frankly i know whatever i was talking about would ultimately be left for me to figure out on my own. Then again, make that somethin for GOD to reveal to me.
Anyways, on the bright side of things i really can't find any superlatives to describe what Shu-Wen is to me. How she tirelessly ensures tha my off centre sense of humour and dreams are kept in check. She's really a god send=)
She's even got me to read the bible with her every night! What i ever do without her?
Have a Nice Day everyone.
posted by Joe at 4/26/2006 09:25:00 PM
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